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Feels obligated to see grandpa

Dear Annie: My grandfather was violently abusive to his wife, and then his daughter (my mother), and then to me. He was also very racist — he punished me for having a black friend in grade school — and generally cruel.

Now, his health is not so good, and his old age has mellowed him considerably. He can still have temper rages if provoked, but most of the time he is calm.

My family keeps urging me to spend more time with him “before he’s gone.” Everyone else is content with sweeping the way he treated us under the rug and brushing it off as “that’s just how he is.” Even my mom adores him, despite what he did to her.

I have no desire to see him again. I’ve visited before out of familial obligation, and I was uncomfortable the whole time. He’s never apologized for his behavior or the way he treated us, and he still thinks everything is either his way or the highway. I don’t wish him any ill will, I just don’t want to see him. Am I wrong? — Guilted Granddaughter

Dear Guilted: The answer to the question “Am I wrong to feel this way?” is always no. Feelings, in themselves, are never wrong. It is our actions that fall under right and wrong, actions such as behaving cruelly and abusively toward vulnerable people. What your grandfather did — not just across years but across generations — was wrong. And it’s easier for your family to engage in amnesia than to acknowledge that it happened.

It sounds as though you’ve made peace with this and aren’t harboring any anger toward him — you’ve made the decision not to see him out of love for yourself, not hatred for him. I commend you for doing all the emotional legwork to reach that point. Hopefully, your mom will understand eventually. In the meantime, know that you are not wrong.

Dear Annie: I read with interest the letter from the brother whose sister has Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder. My husband has that diagnosis. He was motivated to change because, although he had no insight into his behavior, he wanted to keep our marriage intact. He had therapy with a fantastic therapist (I went with him sometimes) with no appreciable change, over two years. The therapist referred him to an excellent psychiatrist, who diagnosed him with OCPD.

The only way to treat this disorder is with medication. My husband takes an anti-depressant, not for depression but because it’s an off-label treatment. And it works! It’s not perfect; he still is stubborn and compulsive/rigid sometimes, but it changed the whole dynamic for the better. And he has some insight into his behavior, best of all. Our marriage has been terrific for many years now.

I realize the sister is not motivated, but she could be motivate her to go to a psychiatrist. — Been There, Came Out the Other Side

Dear Been There: Changing the dynamic from rigid to a little more relaxed is wonderful, and I congratulate you and your husband for keeping at it and finding a good psychiatrist who really helped. Thanks for sharing your story.

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